When I was pregnant with my first baby, I was so excited about having a child because I thought after the emotional traumas, one namely being raped, that I had been through in my life that I could not get pregnant. But, when I found out I was pregnant, I could not wait to tell everybody.
My husband at the time seemed happy too, but I soon found out that he was cheating on me while I was carrying his baby. So many hurtful thoughts came into my mind. I was in a place all alone because he was in the military, so I tried to listen to some of the older saints at the church that we began to go to, and I tried to stay and make our marriage work. I was happy about having our baby, but anger, resentment, and pain were being buried deep down in my soul. Those wounds were leading to wanting to harm him and myself.
Anxiety is a mental health condition that can cause feelings of worry, fear, or tension. For some people, anxiety can also cause panic attacks and extreme physical symptoms, like chest pain.
Eventually, I learned how to love and be loved. My thoughts had to begin to change from negative to positive, and I eventually began to see that if I held on to all the things that were bothering me instead of getting it out of my mind, they stayed there, and it became a bigger worry and frustration for me. That’s why I began to share my story to start shedding those old feelings and begin being made whole.
In my community, I teach how to deal with emotions and feelings by using essential oils. It really helped me to remember things-good and bad-so that I could stop blocking my blessings. The numbness was wearing on my physical body in such a way that anxiety was only growing. But now, I can breathe again, and I want anyone who is suffering from anxiety and depression to be free from these things. Watch my video on how to get free from those feelings here.
I also have a course that is made with mothers in mind who deal with stress and tension and do not know how to let go of the stress. I teach you how to first, start loving on yourself more, then you can begin sharing that love with your baby through learning how to massage them and it can be such an amazing experience for you and your child. Learning to love and be loved can be a journey, but it is a journey worth going through the motions for healing. Check it out here.
I couldn’t sleep. I was feeling so frustrated and angry with myself because I felt like I did not get enough done. I was doing so much negative self-talk and feeling like I couldn’t finish the course. I got stuck on my notes in the first chapter and begin to have a breakdown. I was dealing with the limiting belief of “I don’t have enough time.”