This song means a lot to me, and makes me shout every time I hear it because the Lord Turned it around for Me! 🎶 “He Turned It” by Tye Tribbett rings dear in my spirit because when I say I’ve been through some heartaches, some hurt, some pain, and I’ve been so stressed that I allowed my body to stay so wrecked with pain and misery...Read more...
Being well begins with choosing correct thoughts and words we speak. In order to know how to live in this world, we have to know what we are thinking about and how it affects how we live our lives. Each day I have had struggles in the past with feeling afraid to move forward in my success because of the place I have been programmed to live in a state of victimhood for most of my life. Well, while that may be my default setting, I realize that this place cannot remain where I stay. In the upcoming year, I plan to read more, meditate more, and learn more about how to live eating healthy, choosing the positive things to think about and say daily and working on cancelling the negative self-talk that I have lived with for so long. Healing from this way of living begins from within, and choosing to take the next step and “not conform to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of my mind” (see Romans 12:2), and when I test this theory, I will begin to see the will of God working in me, “…what is good, acceptable, and perfect.” It may not be an easy task to do, but it is important to start moving and placing our first foot forward with action towards affirmations of truth, “calling into existence those things that do not exist” (see Rom. 4:17 ESV). I've seen a quote that said "forgive the negative people because they have learned too many lies" by Lil B, and this rings true to me because the lies that we tell ourselves is where we must start to erase and reprogram ourselves in order to learn what the truth and "the truth will make you free" (John 8:32). We may not see things as great and prosperous happening around us, but we can believe and have faith to know that it is happening for us as we speak it into existence, for the Word says “we walk by faith, not by sight” (2 Corinthians 5:7). As I live and breathe, I realize I have been in a state of unconsciousness, and now moving into a place where I can have what God says I can have, and I choose to believe that what I learned through reading “Conscious Language” by Robert Tennyson Stevens, I learned that “anything less than our highest choice will contain self-sabotage, and I am (we are) designed to thrive!” It is important to learn what words to cancel out of our vocabulary and thoughts and start replacing with words that will keep us from self-sabotage and into a place of freedom. We are no longer sufferers but conquerors in Christ Jesus (see Rom. 8:37), and we must live as such! If you want to learn more about how to get this book, Conscious Language, click here to get it!
This morning as I was doing my devotionals with my husband, we were reading a devotional called "Increasing Your Bloom Ability," something stood out to me about independence being our greatest enemy and learning to live in Him being paramount for increasing our bloom ability. As I began to pray and thank God for how He is leading our family, I saw the Holy Spirit moving and showing me how He has already done so much in the past year. A year ago, I was struggling and working like a workaholic trying to make ends meet because I felt like my husband was not doing enough to make ends meet in our household. I was praying all the time and feeling so angry because he would come home early all the time, and I did not understand why I was working so much, and he was hardly working. But, as time went along, I realized it was not about me and it was not about him, it had always been about learning to depend on God for provisions, and when I began to be grateful for what I had and began to be grateful for my husband and our life together, God started to turn things around. I was no longer in my positions at work. God wanted me to see Him work things out, and not the other way around. I did not need to be dependent on myself, but I needed to see God doing things in my life. In this COVID year 2020, the Lord provided for my family all year without me working!!! I worked maybe a tenth of what I normally worked and that was just because I wanted to. I had prayed that God would bless my husband to be able to lead our family in the way a leader needs to, and God has turned things around in our household to where he is up for a Lead position at work, and I am still home with our children as much as needed. I do a massage here and there, but not nearly like I used to, and I am becoming okay with it because I am happy to be there for my family in the way they need me to be. Being there for my family first is where I need to be and love for my family springs forth. A song comes to mind “Better Days Are Coming” by Le’Andria Johnson, and she says “Keep smiling because everything will be alright,” and I am going to do just that because my days are better as I allow God to do a work in me and I rest in His presence.
When I wake up, sometimes I don't always feel like praising, but as I think about in spite of how I feel, I got to worship, no matter the day or hour because of where I know I have come from and where my Creator has brought me out of. I'm going to lift my hands and give God the praises, and I'm going to sing His praises because I know I did not have to be here, but it is only because of God's grace and mercy that I am still here.
Twenty years ago, I was a victim of rape and it has taken me a long time to deal with that situation. I was feeling hurt, pain, rejected, and unloved. You know, in the day that it happened, I felt like my life was over, but I'm still standing to tell you it is not. In fact, I have learned to forgive that person, forgive myself, and forgive others in the midst of all the situations in order to release the pain in order to live victoriously allowing myself to invite the Holy Spirit to live within me in order that I may have comfort and God's presence with me protecting me, and I began talking to Him daily allowing Him in to my heart so that He could fill the void that was upon me. He's here waiting for anyone who wants to be free from any sin or pain that they are entangled in right now. Instead of chains, why not worship and be free to feel the breath of the Spirit breathing upon you new and refreshing living waters where you will find joy? Allow Jesus to be the Center of Your Joy.
"Then he answered and spake unto me, saying, This is the word of the Lord unto Zerubbabel, saying, Not by might, nor by power, but by my spirit, saith the Lord of hosts" (Zech. 4:6)
October 23, 2020
Earlier this week, I shampooed my carpets and today, my three-year old decided to take a crayon and color all over my carpet. Anxiety and rage rose up in me quickly. I screamed out, but this time, not at her. Before I get into a rant I tell my older daughter to come and get her! I needed to talk to God. I started to yell, "Lord help me! Help me not to go off on this child in front of me!!! I'm trying so hard not to keep yelling at her but she keeps doing things that's making me want to pick her up and throw her down! Lord, help me!" As I was screaming, she comes back in and I tell her I'm not done yet and she needs to go back because I was not ready to be calm to deal with her yet. But, I could hear God at that moment because I went to Him instead of yelling my anxiety at her first, and He told me to Read from my devotional on 7-Day No More Yelling Moms in YouVersion, and I picked up my verse of the day and began reading it, and peace came over me. The verse is Ephesians 4:29 and it says, "Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear." Once I read that, I knew how to speak to my three-year old daughter in that moment. I brought her to me and asked her if she knew what she did wrong, and she did. So, I told her she did wrong there were consequences, and she must sit in a time out for 3 minutes and think about what she had done. I must say, in past times of trying, this did not work, and I believe its because I went about it in my own emotional rage, but this time, she sat for the entire three minutes and we both had time to think. I sprayed the area, and started to clean, but the Holy Spirit said to me to let her scrub the area where she made the mess. Children need power and attention, and when I gave her control over the situation that she caused, she understood a lot better not to do it again. I'm not saying there will not be any other problems, but wholeness and wellness is where well-being is where we want to get to and a sense of peace is what I needed in the moment.